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I Think I'm Fine

by My Lonely Bench

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1.
Nosebleeds 03:13
[Verse] I'm fuckin' bleeding From the punches, to my face and All the shit inside Do you notice me? Or have joked too much, just for you to know That everything in life, is a joke What if I did wrong? Would you finally notice that I exist? You don't have feelings anyway I've lost myself too Through all the people I, tried to fit into They go away, no one ever stays [Pre-Outro] Are you real? Do you see the blood in me baby? Everyone is fake Do you see the pain? You don't [Outro] I can't see She was trying to help me I hate to speak I deserve to bleed nosebleeds
2.
[Verse 1] The things that you say make me feel a-ok The trees in this world cannot grow without you My life is a waste, but you make me feel great And you are something special, I’d feel lucky to be with you [Chorus] I don’t want to live if it’s not with you I’d rather be with you than to waste my time alone Making songs in my bedroom, playing guitar as I don’t know what to do And it’s weird to know that this love song is to no one [Verse 2] Living, dying, dreaming Thinking, lying, crying Why are, you in, my mind? I don’t, know why I try [Chorus] I don’t want to live if it’s not with you I’d rather be with you than to waste my time alone Making songs in my bedroom, playing guitar as I don’t know what to do And it’s weird to know that this love song is to no one [Intrumental Break] [Outro] Making songs in my bedroom Playing guitar as I don’t know What to do, and it’s weird to know that this love song...
3.
[Interlude] A love song to no one Sometimes you're stretched There days where I can't feel In spite of living Living reality Just to see what I don't need [Outro] I just wish I could see (To no one, to no one) I'm alone
4.
[Verse] This isn't shallow to me It takes so much, just to be up-float I wish that my mind was calmer Than these waves of salty waters, I guess land does not exist here [Chorus] I am drowning Why is the world just staring at me? As I am below the sea Where is my baby? [Outro] Where's my baby at? Where's my baby at? Where's my baby at? Where's my baby at? Where's my baby at? Why isn't she here? Why does she love to see me drown?
5.
[Verse 1: Low-Pitched Daniel] When has it really been this hard just to make you happy? You always say it's me, then I make you spoiled, then I end up lonely. Took my rocket so you wouldn't see me, wouldn't see your beauty I'm already in the orbit Kicked me out of your life, like I didn't do any good for you As I look throughout the world, why do I still want you? As I orbit the moon, I still see you Your waist, beautiful moon I hope that another boy, treats you better And if he doesn't, I can't complain. Apparently, I did the same As your on the beautiful world, and i'm missing you Not gonna go back home, just for you. [Verse 2: Normal Daniel] I still have thoughts about you, floating where you'll never see me Tryna call my boys from Houston told them that you'll never love me Up here, it's an endless darkness Hope your enjoying light. I guess I never gave you light, you said that I ruined your life. And now I guess I'm your despise. I really thought that you really loved me, but you really don't (And all my shit I can't sustain, and all the spoils got in your brain.) Maybe it was really my fault Spoiling bitches don't make sense Where did your love go? I'm right up here You feeling lonely? I disappeared And maybe you know on how I feel [Chorus] But why, why did I fall for you? Why do I still want you? This is my Saudade to you My Exosphere Saudade to you But why, why did I fall for you? Why do I still want you? This is my Saudade to you My Exosphere Saudade to you [Outro] (But why, why did I fall for you? Why do I still want you? This is my Saudade to you My Exosphere Saudade to you)
6.
Risks 06:41
I'm in my place She wanted space And I'm sitting down alone But she didn't change her mind I picked up my phone I walked out the door There's blood on the bathroom floor I wanted to be the best you ever had (and then he fucked it up again) She called at around 4 I woke up on the floor And she said "I don't wanna do this anymore." She said "Be with me again, my love." I panicked full of questions Maybe she just wants attention But I'll still be her subvention But what doesn't she want to mention? If I went right back, Maybe love will be intact But I'm not gonna state that as a fact 'Cause she probably hates me inside Unless it's untrue Then I'll take you to the moon Where I live, because you wanted me to Away, away, away from all of the mess But, if you hate me for sure Then I can't be yours I bet your angry, but there is no cure Your anger turns to hate, and now I regret planning our first date Oh, being without you was fine As you heard, I said a lie The loneliness of me in the sky Above the world with no more connections But baby, what are the risks of things? What are the risks? The Risks But baby, these are the risks of things These are the risks The Risks This, is hard To be, this far And I can't make a damn decision You are gorgeous You are not what it seems Innocence is never a question This is questionable, questionable Questionable, questionable Questionable, questionable Questionable, questionable Baby, I can't take the risks Please, you know how this is (It's dark out here, It's dark out here) You know I'm sorry I can't be with you anymore You'll know this for sure You'll know this for sure (It's dark out here, It's dark out here) I'm sorry I'm sorry I can't do this anymore I'm gone
7.
Dry Texts 07:34
[Verse 1] I wish I knew, how much it hurt, you as it hurt me too I felt myself, feeling so fucking blue Put on a mask, would all the sadness cut through? And go away, to make things happy for you? You love yourself, but I'm the opposite from you Girl, maybe let's have a chat, yeah And then I looked at my phone, shit it's a text from her! Make sure she's happy, I am a burden and a blur But that's okay, I mean that's what I should infer So things are good, and not as bad for her Startup a conversation, get things hanging but I Stir, it up again, this conversation so goddamn, meaningless again And you're asking me if I'm okay, I think I'm fine [Chorus] I'm sorry for my dry texts This conversation has no context I'm just tryna keep it all in I know you worry, but mental shit should not get straight in I'm sorry for my dry texts This conversation has no context I'm just tryna keep it all in I know you worry, but mental shit should not get straight in [Verse 2] But maybe, if I were to think She wouldn't want, to be with me But baby girl now I see I needed to love myself more, but I fuckin' loved you so much You wanted me to be better, baby girl, babe [Chorus] I'm sorry for my dry texts This conversation has no context I'm just tryna keep it all in I know you worry, but mental shit should not get straight in I'm sorry for my dry texts This conversation has no context I'm just tryna keep it all in I know you worry, but mental shit should not get straight in [Outro] I wish I knew, how much it hurt, you as it hurt me too I felt myself, feeling so fucking blue Put on a mask, would all the sadness cut through? And go away, to make things happy for you? You love yourself, but I'm the opposite from you Girl, maybe let's have a chat And you're asking me if I'm okay, I think I'm fine I'm sorry for my dry texts This conversation has no context I'm just tryna keep it all in I know you worry, but mental shit should not get straight in [Instrumental Outro]
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9.
Friendship 03:40
[Verse 1] I’ve run out of things, constantly Trying to be, my own me And you can see, my tears of everything Getting confused, not amused Then I conclude, with emotions fused And every person I ever knew Knows that I tried with getting you [Chorus] It’s okay I don’t wanna lose our friendship anyway But please just stay with me I don’t want you to leave in any way [Verse 2] I’ll respect how you feel, getting real Shooting my shot had a surprise reveal Taking L’s, is it my appeal? Finding the time, I wish I saw it I liked you for a while, I will admit it Working on myself, I thought that I was shit And I’ll still love you, even if you’re feeling mixed [Chorus] It’s okay I don’t wanna lose our friendship anyway But please just stay with me I don’t want you to leave in any way It’s okay I would’ve been the one to fuck it anyway But please just promise, don’t leave I... [Instrumental Interlude] [Outro] It’s okay I would’ve been the one to fuck it but- (Please just stay with me, I-) (Please just stay with me, I-) (Please just stay with me, I-) (Please just stay with me, I-) (Please just stay with me, I-) (Please just stay with me, I-) (Please just stay with me, I-) [Dissonance]
10.
Apology 03:07
This is my apology I'm not as good as it may seem I put the blame on you more than me I should've given you the same amount of energy I wanted to know more than I wish I seen I guess it's hard to know what things mean I'm sorry It seems like I've done stupid things And you never wanted me to bleed I can't even think before I speak I guess it's hard to know what things mean It's like I threw all your love down the sea I'm gonna be better for you, I'm trying. Sincerely, The one that really made you happy But never loved himself anyways Everything constantly letting him down Wishing he seen you, but never was around The one that wish he never let you down Now he's just constantly letting you down Imagine If life never had me around
11.
Good Night 03:02
To the one that makes me happy Every single second of my life You're more than I thought you were. To this day, no matter where ever we are in our lives. You'll still be in mine. As my heart keeps beating, I'll remember you made it beat. As the skies turn to the best colors, I will remember you are the prettiest one. And as the flowers always bloom, your name and your beauty is the best one. If you don't remember me at all in the future, then I didn't do enough. But you always did. And if you're not in my life, I wouldn't be okay. I Think I'm Fine with you. Never without you. Good night.

about

I THINK I'M FINE

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this is my first official album, ever. i never thought i would ever get this far to even get this project finished. it was about a year in the making and i didn't want to seem like i was never going to drop it like Playboi Carti wouldn't with his recent album, 'Whole Lotta Red'.

all jokes aside though, this album is for the people that don't know how to say things to their families, friends, or even the person they love, knowing how depressing it may be. meaning, i've said it for you. no matter if you needed an apology to tell everyone or an upbeat song about self-harm, i started it for you.

not for the content audience, but for the depressing audience. there will absolutely be many sad songs in the album that you may, or may not, want to listen to. at the end, you may sense how i feel and may think to yourself, "do i really feel this way about myself?"

if so, then i pray that you will get better soon. because more and more support will just be along your journey to life.
if not, help those who do.

thank you ALL for your continuous support of the works from My Lonely Bench

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credits

released March 26, 2021

SPECIAL THANKS:

my family who've helped me through the journey of music and got this album finally finished for everyone to listen to.

The Perez' (my father and Jaileen Perez). Pa, who helped me with the business side of things such as marketing, networking, and motivation to just keep going. and my sister who also helped me with the visual aspects of the album. this wouldn't have gone far without visuals. hope to have some merch collabs soon.

my friends at the time who listened to my tracks, gave song ideas, and motivated me to get this done as well. thank you for also giving me a reason to wake up every day.

and of course, every single one of my fans and supporters who help me do my best in everything of musical content, daily life, and even more. you all especially help me to keep on doing what i wanna do. more music for everybody in the world will continue to come.

recorded in May 2019 - November 2020 at Daniel's Bedroom in Portage Park, Chicago

produced, engineered, mixed, and mastered by My Lonely Bench / Daniel Ellis Perez

artwork by Jaileen Perez

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